After another few times you’ll be just like the rest of us. Look. The cry of unfair has never changed anything worth changing in life. The better thing would be more about what you could have done to better the situation. Should you have been wearing the Tact backpack? Should it stay in you bike until you need the extra slots? Should you be more free with using of heals? Should you move up when you decide to use your heals - (now I’ll heal at 50 health instead of 20)? It sounds like you made changes to how you played after the first time, that is good, but it seems like you aren’t there yet. Don’t let it discourage you, you are better than that. You can bounce back, and nothing will stop you from being better next time. (Unless you let yourself stop you.)